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In the beginning…

At twenty-two, caught in a winter storm, blowing hair tickling my face, I watched the swaying dance of marsh grasses animated by the wind and stood stone-like, in awe. At that pregnant moment I came to know the cosmos before me: the grass, the lake, the wind, the ducks, and clouds and sky and stars and moon as co-revelers in a dance; a dancing into being. I realized too–immediately, not in retrospect–that I had a role in that dance, at once spontaneous, unbounded, mysterious, but I had no way to choreograph its steps or perform its movements. Instantly I became part of something larger, something beautiful, something entirely Other and still me at the same time.  This vision sustained me for a decade or more, even as it poked at me, festering.  It wouldn’t leave me alone! Unable to get on with life in a Western way I finally sought a different way of being, one being pressed upon me it seemed, by the cosmos itself, luring me from afar, irrepressible.  No longer able to turn my back, I turned towards it seeking the nature of nature, seeking …